i haven't enjoyed playing basketball for very long. my buddy just came back from the US and we played basketball. "shiok". the complimentary feeling is like forever there even after months of untouching. haha. how i wished this could happen more often. i have to wait till next summer. he's flying back soon.

larry made me ponder. why should i open myself to other girls? why not try dating other girls? maybe i shouldn't have liked ******* in the first place. but what's wrong with liking someone? i knew it's impossible between us now and in the near future. i once said i would wait on her. my friends said i would be a fool to do that. what if she turned her back on you eventually? i would have waited for... nothing.

what jason said made some sense. first - put her on holding list. secondly - not to miss out on other eligible girls. well. that's cruel. but i don't think like him. i'll feel guilty if my heart were to be in two different places. i just can't bring myself to like another girl when another is still in my heart. but if i ever got over the first one i would never turn back. let alone put her on holding list. so should i give her up? can i forget her? what should i do?

found some nice meaningful quotes from my buddy's blog.

giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. don't expect love in return. just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't. be content it grew in yours. it takes only a minute to get a crush on someone. an hour to like someone. and a day to love someone. but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. don't go for looks. they can deceive. don't go for wealth. even that fades away. go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. find the one that makes your heart smile.

find the one that makes your heart smile. i like that one. yeah.