Saturday, January 22, 2005

morning call at 7am on a saturday morning. what a day to wake up early. everyone else must be still sleeping. because yesterday was hari raya and today was a saturday. and i was proven right. the streets were like so empty at 8am. reached sun tec way before 9am.

magic pre-release tournament. that was probably my 4th pre-release if i remembered correctly. legions. mirrodin. fifth dawn. betrayers. yeah got it right. amazed that a light breakfast lasted me throughout the non-stop 6 hours. maybe it's because when you are too engrossed in doing something you'll forget about hunger. well. easily got straight into the competition mood. won 2 rounds. lost 2 rounds. so it's even. not a bad achievement. could have been better if i had a couple of good rares. oh! and there was a female player among hundreds of guys. how on earth would a girl love card games? it's bewildering.

anyway. the term had started. hope taking 6 modules won't kill me. my time table is so packed. like those cartons of packet drinks. i think that's the best analogy i can find. well. plus. tuition. squash. no time for anything else. occasionally try to squeeze some time for mahjong and basketball. i must endure! there's still chinese new year holidays. haha. but again. after that i have to finish 3 projects. maybe i should already be glad. that there's chinese new year for me to enjoy. or maybe not. if my grandfather happen to pass away. *touch wood*

i know i shouldn't expect too much. it doesn't make sense not to expect. this quote had been on my mind for too long. *hope for the best. prepare for the worst.* i wonder if the person who came up with this had an optimistic or pessimistic point of view. it could be both. but the actions that follow are different. hope. prepare. the former - in your dreams. the latter - you better do something about it. is it supposed to be a paradox?



*something i retrieved from my previous blog..*

"In the course of living, many people are disappointed when others do not live up (or down) to their expectations. In order to be happy, some expectations must be dropped. These unrealistic and unhealthy expectations are three of the main culprits."

1. Do not EXPECT appreciation. When others say, "Thank you," or in any way show their gratitude, be happy. It is a gift!

2. Do not EXPECT others to make you happy. They simply cannot do that. Make yourself happy and share your joy with others.

3. Do not expect NOT to be let down. At times, people will simply not come through for you in the way you need. Forgive them and move on. Get rid of these three expectations and you will be getting rid of daily disappointment!

I wonder who thought of this. So smart. Why can't people live a life of virtually no expectation? Why do people have expectation? Why do "bo-chup" people still exist in this world? To give and not expect is like repaying something which you owe.. sounds as if i owe the whole world something..